There cheery smile behind a small incision in the liver

I cant remember how, I cant remember why. I try to make a sound but no one hears me. I cant explain what happened. I cant erase. I cant stop this game. what the fuck is wrong with me. I life in the nightmare. I think I have got a lot a friends but no one more understand me. sometimes, I wish wake up and move on. keep smile however happened to me! Im standing on the bridge. Im waiting in the dark. Im listening but theres no sound. Isnt anyone trying to find me? no! no one more understand me!  please! please bring me to out this game. Im not a stronger woman! I try it! I try to be a stronger woman. what can I do just now? nothing! because of you, Im afraid. because of you Im cry. a smile, a laugh everyday of my life. why? why you break my heart? you will me die? look at me and really see mu heart! everything I do, reminds me of you. and the days feel like years when Im alone, need you there when I cry. everything I do I give my heart and soul. I can hardly breathe I need to feel you here with me. when youre gone, I cannot smile again. one more, I try! do you see how much I need you right now? its not the end, I have been trying tell you something but your never understand. I see you next to me but I still you feel so far away.  I have been around the world and I have seen so many things. please make me understand about this ! please help me to accept this all ! please dont make me sad ! see what can I do to know your heart boy ! over time. you will disappear and Ilose you can only smile remembering all our memories ! what can I do when your gone when it feel so wrong? what can I say to make you wanna stay? so what can I do, dont leave this way. cause it feels so wrong. stop all these games cause I just cant say goodbye!

what my false, still you can hurt me? did you know? I so really sad when you leave me!